Hayate Reflections: My Motivations

Instead of once again tackling the dead-beaten horse of a topic of how Hayate loves Nagi despite all protests from the western fanbase (or those with western sensibilities) to the contrary, let's talk about something a little bit different today.

Today, let's talk about how I love Nagi... which in itself is also a dead-beaten topic -- BUT, that won't prevent me from talking about it anyway.

But before that, let's take a few steps backwards -- back to a time before I discovered that I actually love Nagi.

I have always been a creative individual. This is an objective assessment and I'm not indulging in self-praise here. Basically, I am always fueled by a desire to create something. This is why I often drift in and out of my two primary pastimes -- writing and visual arts.

Personally, I believe that I am more naturally inclined towards literature. I can imagine any number of scenarios for a fiction story and I can basically write about anything that piques my interest without really putting a whole lot of effort into it.

In contrast, when I draw something -- even though it might look simple, I actually have to try really hard just to get it to look good. Even after over a decade of practicing and improving my skills, I still have lots of obvious weaknesses in the way I draw things.

Still, whether I'm writing a piece of fiction, painting something in watercolors, or combining my passions in the form of a visual novel, the motivation -- the driving force behind my creations has always been homogeneous.

I have always been fueled simply by a love for aesthetics. I desire to create something beautiful -- beautiful by my own standards. Something that pleases my senses.

And if one were to ask me: what is the most beautiful thing to you? The answer for me is very simple: It is Sanzen'in Nagi -- the girl, the heiress, the former heiress, the loli, the spoiled brat, the brat who became great -- whatever you may think of her -- to me, she is simply the most beautiful. Therefore, very simply: I cannot help falling in love with her. For me, she is my goddess -- perfect in all her imperfections.

See you next week. By the way, it's Hina's birthday tomorrow. I always draw her on this day, of course... so watch out for my annual Hina birthday fanart on twitter: http://twitter.com/violent_cloud

In other news, I am currently working on a long-ish novel called "Rivers of Blood."  I plan to post the first chapter on this blog very soon. It's quite different from my usual works, so I hope you'll read it with an open mind.

Fanart Corner

This watercolor painting was done during a livestream just two days ago. The reference for the place is from one of @nyarth's posts on twitter and apparently, the place is the hub at Edinburgh.